Tuesday, November 17, 2015

And then it became a we

Road Dog Creations started as A hobby for John. Well now it has become a family business. There is just something distressing about stringing all those beads. We have our last live event for 2015 this weekend and I have already announced Christmas deadlines. It's a great problem to have. I joke that this side business has taken over our house and our lives but I honestly don't mind. Well except the fact that the workers at Michaels know me by name and I get texts when certain items come back in stock. Apparently that is a little strange. So I am introducing a new line at Road Dog Creations today. Here is just a small sampling of Hentown Mama for Road Dog Creations (creative title, I know). And in celebration, I am hosting a giveaway! All you have to do is like the Hentown Mama and Road Dog Creations Facebook pages. There is a button in the side board for Hentown Mama for you to click and like my page and for the moment (I am on my phone) you will have to search for Road Dog Creations. One winner will win a pair of our original bullet rim earrings with your choice of birthstones as well as an original beaded necklace. 

 I am also working on updating the look of the blog and adding a link to our shop, it's just seems to be taking me longer than I planned.
I am enjoying this new adventure and also the fact that I can make all of this sitting in my recliner or at my dining room table. It is the perfect hobby for me right now. So for now- go like our pages on Facebook and enter to win unique Christmas gifts for yourself or a friend. 

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

October Favorites

Normally this is my favorite time of year. October brings pumpkin everything, cooler weather, changing leaves, and Allume. Except this year I didn't get to go to Allume. And as much as I missed it, I needed to be at home this year. I normally have my whole house decorated for fall by now too. This year there are some pumpkin candles lit and that is about it. For some reason, my favorite time of year is just not this year. It may be the broken tooth, or even the deer. Or it could be that I am dealing with another kidney stone and just not in the mood to enjoy it. 

However, since I tell all of my patients that they have to find at least one positive thing in everyday, I am going to do the same thing. I do have some new favorite things this month. 


 I am reading "The Ragamuffin Gospel" right now. It has been on my to read list for a while but I finally bought it. It is so good. I am devouring it and that is saying a lot because between 3 jobs I don't have a lot of reading time. But this is definitely a book I needed right now. 

I don't know why but this song has just grown on me this month and now I love it. 

Well since I now get custom jewelry from Road Dog Creations, I have to say that I am loving these earring that I designed and John made. 
I also have a whole new appreciation for legging but that is another story. 


Okay, so I am a little late on this since the show actually finished last year BUT- I am watching Season 1 of the "Parenthood" and wondering why I did not watch this show before. It is so good. I guess I was under a rock somewhere. I also watched the last season of "Outlander" on DVD and it was okay. Definitely not the book. We are apparently on a steady stream of "Jurassic World" and "Avengers 2" with the boys. I am a little tired of both. Yes, I am tired of watching Thor which will surprise some people. 

So while there have been some interestingly negative things going on this month, there are also a few positives. Like starting a new business and doing festivals, etc. We are actually going to have a booth this weekend at an Easton Corbin concert. I have several new books sitting on my to read shelf that I am ready to have time to read and let you know about too. So maybe November will be better than October has been health and busy wise. 

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Deer, broken teeth, and dentists

Yesterday, on my way to work, I hit a deer. A baby deer that still had spots on him. So there was no damage done to my van. But my nerves were shot for the rest of the day. So when my tooth broke at lunch, I just wanted to sit there and cry. (I didn't but I wanted to.) 

Instead, I went and saw 10 more patients and worked late. Now I am sitting at the dentist office. I really dislike the dentist office. I don't like people messing around in my mouth and I certainly don't like the headache I always get after visiting the dentist. But today I will take the headache over the pain from this tooth. Even knowing they are probably going to have to pull the tooth (I am so thankful it is the one in the very back.) I am just hoping it won't be that bad because I have to be at work in a couple of hours. And work late again today to be able to come here. 
So I am spending my wait time writing this and if the wait goes too much longer I will be reading a new book. I have a feeling that I am not going to get back there on time even coming early. It's just how my "luck" is running right now. That is how I am spending my day. I really hope it goes smoother than yesterday. 

Monday, October 12, 2015

"The Imposter"- {a review}

I am not someone who normally reads books about the Amish. Nothing against them, its just not normally my thing. But I thought this one sounded interesting so I signed up to review it. 

In "The Imposter", Katrina is a young girl who thinks she has her life figured out. Then her life has an unexpected twist and she has to adjust accordingly. At the same time, her family has to deal with her choices and the ones they have made themselves. 

As someone who really doesn't read this particular type of book often, I am looking forward to the next book in the series. The story is well written and draws you in, keeping your interest throughout. I found myself really caring about the characters and questioning why in the world they would make some of the decisions they did. Not because it wasn't possible but because I just couldn't see that character doing that until later in the book. 

I recommend this book for the mom looking for a good book for the weekend or just someone who wants something to read. 

Sunday, October 11, 2015

Road Dog Creations

So I am sitting on the couch at my grandmother-in-law's right now. We came up here to spend the weekend with her and go to a local fall festival. So of course it rained. We walked around in the rain for a couple of hours and saw a lot of stuff and made some connections for John's new business. And we got wet. But the kids had fun running around in the rain and seeing a Powwow.

Then I realized how long it's been since I have actually been on here and written anything.

So I decided that I would talk about John's new business for a minute.

John needed a new hobby so he started making these earrings. He has several different color crystals and actually has some other designs available. I have spent this morning doing my new "job" with his company. I get the fun title of Social Media Manager/ Website management. So he now has a new shop on Etsy, an email address, and a phone line dedicated to his company. Since we are obviously out of town, the store only has one listing but I hope to fill it up this week. He is going to start going to craft shows as well. If you want to check out his store it is located at www.etsy.com/shop/RoadDogCreations. You can also look for him on Facebook at www.facebook.com/RoadDogCreations

After I get the Etsy page all set up I will be hosting a giveaway so look for that coming soon. 

Monday, September 14, 2015


Can I be completely honest right now? 

I am supposed to be writing a review on here about a really awesome book. Instead I wrote an abbreviated version on Amazon. 

I am completely overwhelmed with life right now. I LOVE my new job but the drive is getting to me. The mornings are fine but the afternoons seem to take forever. The emotional turmoil from the past three months are taking their tole. And my boys seem to think that now is the time to go completely looney. 

One thinks that failing the 9th grade in the first semester is okay. Two think that alternating between clingy and hateful is the "cool" thing to do. And one has found a belligerent attitude that needs to make a quick exit. 

Add some fun health issues that have decided to join the party and I. AM. OVERWHELMED!

I thought that I was going to be able to go out of town and rest this past weekend but it didn't happen. So now I am on a 12 day straight work week quickly followed by several jam packed weekends in a row. I don't see any actual rest in sight. 


Writing has been a much needed outlet lately. And it will continue to be. But where I planned to pick up writing more frequently, I am pretty sure it isn't going to happen right now.

So hopefully soon I will be back on a regular schedule everywhere. 

Monday, August 31, 2015

When Quiet is the Norm

I talk a lot on here about how hard losing a baby is. And I am about to go deeper into that than I have before. So be forewarned that you might want to stop reading now.

Well today (Sunday), I had a really long conversation with John about how hard it still is.

And in the whole conversation where there were a lot of confessions made about how we both handled it and how much it still hurts- the thing that kept coming up was how alone I feel to this day in that loss.

Society expects us to stay quiet about it. There has been a huge movement in the last couple of years to offer support and to encourage people to open up but for the most part nobody wants to hear about it. Because to some people, that sweet baby I lost was never a baby. She was never a person who deserves any recognition of having existed.

But she was real. And she was mine. And part of me died the day I lost her.

No one will ever understand that except another mom who has experienced it too.

The blame game is a real thing that doesn't end even after 11 years. Not blame for other people but blame of myself and of God. Which is a struggle that I don't know if I will ever get past.

Everyone tells you to turn to God and lean on him and to trust him. But how to you fully trust someone who took away something so precious and so loved.

I've been told to move on by people who have no clue what it feels like. I have been called selfish and stupid for lashing out and blaming John at the time. All by someone who will hopefully never know that loss and that pain. Because they don't understand.

I know that there is always a dad out there that suffers the loss too. And I know that they hurt and they probably blame themselves. Because John did and still does. I don't know if it is the same. I can't answer that question.

I know that for me, my husband was playing golf when it happened and I sat in a cold ER room by myself for hours. I was alone in an ultrasound room with a stranger praying for a heartbeat. And while there was one- the other was silent. I did all of that alone. I laid in a bed by myself later that night, scared to move. I was alone. Because the one "person" who is never supposed to leave your side had abandoned me. I literally felt abandoned by God in the moment.

I am pretty open about that baby with other moms who have lost. But I never go deeper. I don't talk about how I felt abandoned and alone. I have actually never told John until today. I am like so many others who will sit there and keep it all in and grieve alone.

But by doing it alone, I have never really acknowledged all the feelings and fears that go with it. And now it is coming back to haunt me in ways I never thought possible.

I don't want sympathy and I certainly don't want anyone's comments that are going to tell me that I need to get over it or that I need to work on my relationship with God. I have been hearing that for 11 years. What I want from actually putting all this out there is for everyone to realize that a mom who loses a baby never gets over it. And to them that baby was as real as if she had held them in her arms. That loss goes deeper into her soul than you can imagine. So stop telling them to be quiet just because you don't want to listen to them. I don't think that you have to completely understand what they are going through to listen to them. Let them vent and let them grieve openly if they want to. Just stop asking all these moms to be quiet and keep it all to themselves.