For 3 days, we had a bouncey house. And for 3 days I saw this scene repeatedly. Not just with Miles, but with countless children. These kids just abandoned every care and worry they had to jump for hours. Hair flying, laughing, and sometimes falling; they had zero worries while in this huge blow up house.
Now I personally did not get in this house. I chose the water slide. There is just something that kept stopping me. That thought of looking like a complete idiot in front of other people. I am finding that a lot lately. I don't take chances because I don't want to look stupid in front of others. And I am missing out on a lot.
I want to be able to have that childlike abandon sometimes and just jump. Forget everything else and have fun. (Not necessarily in a bouncey house because I am a little too old for all that jumping.) I think too much about what someone else is going to say or how they will feel. And while that is a good thing most of the time, it's not a great thing when it stops you from pursuing dreams and growth.
From now on (maybe) I'm going to just give in and jump sometimes. Making a fool of myself can't be much worse than always playing it safe. And who knows what I will find that I have been missing.